I didn’t want my first diary entry of the New Year to be all doom and gloom which is why I have sat on this one for a few weeks – at least until I had something  happy to add!

In all honesty I had been feeling quite low. Mostly the reason for this was that Angels4You lost 2 of our Manchester escorts recently. I was unprepared for the feelings this brought up. Somehow I felt that I had failed them as a escort agency manager – had I given them too much work or too little? Had I set up an in-compatible match for them with a client? I have been questioning myself and worrying over it.

So why am I here now writing this diary entry? – Well I was all dismal but it quickly passed. In fact, I am feeling exactly the opposite now! I have made it my one woman mission over the past few days to catch up with all of our current amazing Manchester and Leeds Escorts face to face. I can say now that this was just what I needed and what a FANTASTIC time I have had! I met up with our Manchester escorts for a meal. I bet a great many of you clients would’ve loved to have been a fly on THAT restaurant’s wall! (And probably a fair few TV stations too) It’s really easy being around other Manchester escorts. There are no judgemental attitudes, instead there is an ease of understanding – a comradery. And I can tell you – a great many hilarious stories were swopped!

I met up with our Angels4You Leeds escort Sophie, the night after. Once more, the same sort of scenario occurred. Lots of stories, a feeling of closeness due to the similar mentality; its fun, its work, it’s professional.

It’s refreshing not having to hide things for a change. I have said before that I am an honest person and that being truthful unfortunately does not go hand in hand with being an escort or an escort agency manager. I have got used to always keeping a part of me back and silenced when I am socialising with my own friends. Sure – it’s fun having a guilty secret, but over time secrets wear you out. It is apparent that all escorts have to go through this difficult question; who to tell? And who not to tell? Out of all of your friends, family and loved ones, who can actually cope with what you do and remain unchanged around you? I have tried both. When I was keeping my escorting life from my partner it was very difficult HOWEVER at the same time I can see how easy it is to just carry on with not volunteering this piece of your life. It doesn’t hurt anyone after all does it? So it doesn’t seem like a massive to deal to you. But the easy path is not always the right one for that person or situation. I have been very lucky with my close family though – all of them know about what I have been up to and what I do now and have never batted an eyelid. Sue has not been so lucky with her family but then, she has always been honest to the whole world about Angels4You from the start.

Anyway, meeting up with the Angels4You team-members highlighted the reasons I initially got into escorting. The word that frequently was used was ‘empowerment’. It is very difficult to explain to a non-escort but the feeling is addictive and unlike much else.  I must admit that I am getting a bit nostalgic about escorting…

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